[For those who are wondering – I feel like crap. It has been smoky all week and I haven’t run in 9 days. But my mind is way worse off than my body. Sweet, beautiful, brilliant friends, I need your kind words now more than ever. It’s rally time.] October 18, 2015 (morning)
I didn’t want to have surgery again.
I didn’t want my mom to come back so soon.
I didn’t want to take another break from my running and mountain biking.
I didn’t want someone else taking care of my girls.
I didn’t want to ask my friends to bring dinner again.
I didn’t want to spend the night in the hospital.
I didn’t want to lose my entire breast.
I didn’t want to want implants.
To make matters worse, there was a fire. A really BIG fire that was covering Boise in smoke. Smoke so thick that you could feel it in your lungs after a few minutes outside. Events were being cancelled all over town and that meant no getting on the trails either.
To make matters even WORSE, the exterior of our house was being painted. That meant the windows were all wrapped in plastic and taped off. There was nowhere to go and nothing to see.
I was physically and emotionally trapped.
I can’t tell you what I did for those 9 days because I don’t remember. But I do remember the ticking of the clock and the dread.
I had to put a desperate call out and my village responded.
55 comments in 24 hours and it turned everything around. Just in the nick of time.
[Who needs a left nipple when I have this pup and friends like you?] October 18, 2015 (evening)
#notthisgirl #goingtobedbetterthaniwokeup#backinbusiness #bogusboi #friendsdontletfriendshide #seeyoutuesday