Beautiful Words

[I went to ‪#‎rawartistsboise‬ tonight and met @darlingbirdjodi and she changed my life. Jodi’s grandmother died of breast cancer but left a jar of old keys for her. Jodi didn’t know what she was going to do with them and a couple of first attempts failed. She then realized that she could “draw” on them with her…

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Heroes

These are my heroes at MSTI – St. Luke’s Mountain States Tumor Institute. I tried to take selfies with everyone who helped me through my treatments. I was so sad to say goodbye to them on the day of my last infusion. I liken it to leaving summer camp. You may be happy to be…

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Wonderful > Perfect

[I have been paralyzed by thoughts, ideas, anxieties, and fatigue lately. I have been pacing in circles not knowing how to move forward. I have stopped myself from complaining about the horrible rash that caused me to lose my beloved PICC line last week, the horrendous fingernails that can’t grip anything and have turned ziplocks…

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Breathe

[I have thought (as someone is asking me how I’m doing yet already looking at me with sad puppy dog eyes before I’ve actually replied) to say, “I’m good and in great spirits right now. Don’t be sad for me unless this crap comes back in the next 5 years and kills me.” Then I…

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Steady For The Win

[I’ve been struggling this week with getting both feet off the ground which has led to some real self doubt. After 3 rounds I just don’t feel quite like myself and that is hard to swallow. I can hear the clock constantly ticking toward the next round and yet another week of staring at my…

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